Hey Guys!
Its been just about a year I have not been here. I got better, I got treatment. Hope you guys are happy for me!! I wanted to say a big thank you to everyone who helped me out and supported me, you guys are really great! I love you!
The thing i still have to work on is emotional dependence... I tend to be very dependent on what other people think or say. My boyfriend can sometimes barely stand it. If im not with him, im sad.
I know this all has to do with my past EDNOS but i dont know how to change it. I have healed almost everywhere except this one thing thats holding my back..
Any advice?
Thank you!
- Location:In mahh roomz
- Mood:creative
- Music:Coldplay
Its been a long time i have not been here.. but im all better now!!
How are you guys? I have a friend and we have a goal weight set in november. but she lives across the world. Do you guys sometimes feel it would all be much easier if a friend that lived nearby you was living with the same thing, and it would be much easier to talk to them?
anyone from montreal? i need support on my downer days....
xxxx luv you
- Mood:
thoughtful - Music:Eminem
The training is great, but after i swim, i get soooooooooo hungry... so i try and eat like, something low cal.. but i just crave a real big meal, to like, make up for all that i exercised..
How do i get rid of that? anyone else get those??? Im really going to try and not eat tonight... wish me luck!
- Mood:
hungry
The thing is that no restaurant can not make me break my 600 limit. Even if i dont eat anything else all day... the plates and servings are huge..
What can i do? i cant like hide it in my napkin or drop it on the floor cuz people will see it...Do i just eat normally(ill take hoodia before) and nevermind my 600? Do i aim for like, 400 or even 200 for the next few days?
Its such a dilemma!!
- Mood:
confused
Thanks for all your support!
My bf knows about my anorexia and he keeps bitching about the fact that this site is bad, its soo annoying. He never understand what im going through. He says i dont eat healthy. But i do, i eat lots of fruits and veges, meats proteine and fiber.. He eats like a pig, no one need 2 plates of spaghetti plus desert.. I eat healthier than he does.. he has candy and chocolate like if his life depends on it.. Just cuz i dont eat a lot doesnt mean i aint healthy!!
He wants me to be around 115 pounds.. WTF! For my weight... im 5'1'', no offense to anyone, but ive been at that weight and for my own self, i didnt like it at all. I think he wants me to be round and mushy so he can use me as a pillow!!
Update on myself: Everytime i go to a party i get drunk and i tend to flirt with a bunch of guys.. then the next day, i feel like a slut and i say i wnt ever do it again.. but i do. Does it make me a slut?? I dont flirt when imin a relationship.. me and my beau were broken up. But i still feel like a slut.. but on the upside, i dont eat after cuz i feel guilty..
What do you guys think?
Hey guys!
Im new! Well actually ive been looking at this site for months but i never actually joined until now.. I was too shy and a little afraid at the same time.. But I know you guys are all soooo nice!
Well, I figure ill give you my stats... Sorry if I sound awkward, Im shy!! lol
cw: 96.4 lbs
gw: 85 lbs
hw: 115 lbs
I am also, 19 years old, im 5'1'', really not a tall person!
I cant wait to get to know all of you!!
Take much care! xxxxxx
- Location:In my room
- Music:Carla Bruni
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